As I lay awake in the middle of the night, I was thinking that I have never really felt close to any woman. I don't trust them to be honest and fully accepting and trusting of me and loyal to me.
I wondered how much of that was caused by my mother's example in her relationships, and how she treated me, and how she acted, with her quirks and fears.
I wondered if the source of that were more from me or from them. I wondered if God has it in His plan for me to feel that close with any woman ever.
I asked God about it. I started getting thoughts that I should feel that close to everyone. And how? By being at one with them, unified and united with the good in them. Letting the bad in them fall away, fall off of them, by forgiving, accepting, and loving them.
